Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Just for Today
So I have had so many understanding readers and for that I thank you for continually checking back!
For the past few months I have let many of my phone calls ring through to voice mail ... dodged friends in the grocery store ... and spent endless hours drifting off into some kind of time warp. Believe it or not, I have started this email dozens of times. But through it all I have wondered if 2009 really happened or if it was just a dream and I will wake up and everything be normal.
In May 2009, 8 months into my pregnancy with Chad, I started to loose my eyesight in my right eye.
Two weeks later, it turned into complete blackness.
2 weeks after that, Chad was born.
Two weeks later I had MRI's that couldn't answer questions.
Following our unanswered questions, our prayers were answered.
We picked up and moved to Utah, where we could receive better medical advice.
We packed up our already sold home, and moved to a basement of the first apartment we lived in when we were newlyweds. We lived out of boxes until something became available and Adam commuted 3 days a week back to Page.
We found a doctor. An AMAZING doctor.
An Unexpected answer came.
I have a disease.
A rather rare, and scary disease called NMO (Neuromyelitis Optica) or also known as Devics Disease.
We don't know if the loss of eyesight in my right eye will be the end of it.
Yes I could become permanently blind or even become permanently paralyzed.
Am I worried, YES ... but for today I am living healthy and working through these bits of craziness called trials.
SO where does this leave me? Where do I go from here?
When the clock ticked midnight and it was now 2010, a silent tear appeared and relief filled my body that I made it through one of the hardest years of my life.
So now I will promise to update my blog. I will promise to inspire all of you amazing mothers, fathers, crafty people, and not so crafty people.
So just for today ... I take a few short moments, (and challenge you to do the same) to look at my kids and burn their image into my mind. Just for today I embrace the moment I see the man of my dreams, walk through the door and give me that beautiful smile. Just for today I am enjoying every moment, every second, and every minute ... because tomorrow I might not be able to.
As a thank you for all of you loyal readers, friends, and family, I am going to start off my posting again with a giveaway. One of my dear friends is Liz Kartchner, and if you don't already know, she has written an amazing book called 52 MORE SCRAPBOOKING CHALLENGES.
Be sure to send me a message with your email address. I will pick the winner this Saturday, January 30th! GOOD LUCK Friends!